Feb 28, 2009

Life target

Salam'alayk
kali ni nk bercerita pasal talk Dr Khairizan few weeks back during Nursing Edu Week

Life in this world is about knowing where are you going
everybody= calon jenazah
and because of that everybody must have their life target
in order to achieve our target we must have high motivation
some said, ingat senang ke nk didik diri bermotivasi?
that's why we must have the reason for action
we need desire for achievement
jadilah org yg determination
pergh ak teruja di situ..
w.pun pd awalnya dtg secara paksa rela hehe tpi emm..best jugak Dr ni heee
ok smbung..

lack of desire = HATE
sebab tulah kita sukar nk menggapai our target
em betul betul betul
so that people
u must keeping up with motivation!

Know your target n work for it!
bila dh ada clear target [ u must have it]
berdoalah
Allah knows best!

Requirement to keeping up with motivation:
You must have~
1. Life target
2. Accepting responsibilities
3. Multiple short term target - must be clear target
4. Prepare to handle complications
5. Flexible and thinking to be success


Feb 20, 2009

sekitar lawatan







on our way back to Kuantan, we dropped by at Tasik Putri,Bkt Besi to have our 2nd lunch hehe

Tasik Putri, Subhanallah!


rasa cm nk terjun je!

1st National Nursing Students' Symposium

Feb 19, 2009

Visit to Rumah Ehsan

Salam'alayk

yahoo Thursday was a holiday!!!
really?
naaa no such thing heee..
[bertuah sgt laa klu tgh2 weekdays dpt cuti]
but we ourselves created the 'holiday' title =)

as a part of our syllabus for Gerontological Nursing subject we'd visited one famous old folks home in the eastern called Rumah Ehsan.
sort of field visit, something like that..
jalan-jalan cari makan la jugak kt Dungun kiranya =)

Rumah Ehsan is not really an old folks home but it is like a nursing home for the elderly or homeless people
The most wanted criteria for someone to enter Rumah Ehsan regardless the age is that he/she must have chronic disease confirmed by doctor + have nobody to look after.. bak kata abg yg bagi taklimat tu, sakit melarat..
Most of the residents are bedridden due to paralysis + other chronic diseases
just a very few of them [ u can count them!] are able to mobilize normally
there are about 110 residents at Rumah Ehsan
some of them are homeless, send by their own family, come by their own
huuu sgt mengharukan laa when we tried to approach them
i can say that seriously they need our attention+love+care!

there's one client known as Makcik Jahara,she's blind+immobilize
her action that really caught my attention was she's holding a tasbih n saying zikir
Allah Allah
i was impressed!
i started doing rapport with her n we chat for a while bla bla bla
serioulsy she missed her family! i knew it by looking at her face + when the tears came out everytime she told me about her family..
huu

another 1 is P.Cik Ismail, a Sabahan..
i remember him most because he told me a very long history about his life, how he could get there accidentally bla bla bla
ouch..really touch my heart!
from his story i know that he's a well-educated person previously
but whatever, he always told me that he never regret with his life
because he got everything already,
'yg penting ada ilmu. tuntutlah ilmu sampai mati'
i'll remember those words..

it was a whole day program since we involved in helping them in physiotherapy session, eating and so forth..

when i reached my room, i began to think..
how's my future?
Nauzubillahiminzalik
YA Allah peliharalah kami hambaMU yg serba kekurangan
jagalah kami ke akhir hayat
ameen

Feb 18, 2009

Uridu abi

Salam'alayk

seketika aku teringatkan ayah
yup mmg lately ak sering teringatkan ayah
sedar tak sedar almost 7 tahun dh berlalu tanpa ayah di sisi..
kadang2 rasa nak rebah
tapi terpaksa bertabah
no choice!
my life change 360 degree after that..
hmm terasa nk bercerita tiba2.
saja.

em byk kenangan masa zaman kanak2 la kot
sebab mmg stay with my grandma
skola menengah da masuk asrama plak
hmm
w.pun i'm the only child
tpi ayah tak penah ajar ak utk bermewah2
ayah x mudah nk beri klu ada ape2 yg aku mintak
kata ayah fikir keperluan atau kehendak
dulu ayah org susah..

ayah selalu gosok2 kepala aku kt public area
[aaaa apa ayah ni, org dh besar laa malu laa]
ayah gelak je bila ak cakap cmtu
tpi takpe mmg ak x kesah pun..

masa kecik2 pantang je ayah nk keluar
[nk ikut boleh?]
sbb ak mmg ske merayau haha
ak mmg rapat lagi dgn ayah compared to mak
hehe sebab tu la slalu jadi geng dgn ayah kenakan mak =p
ntahpape laa
maybe sebab mak slightly strict kot
tpi itulah kelebihan mak

masa aku masuk hospital 1998
bleh kata tiap2 hari nk makan gulai ikan bawal
aku pun tatau kenapa
so mmg ayah masak n hantar tiap2 hari la ke hospital
effect ubat prednisone yg ak mkn
mmg utk tambah selera mkn huu
ayah was the best ever cook in the world!
kalah mak haha
kalau dua2 masuk dapur hah memang riuh rendah la jadinya

ayah mmg suka membaca + ikuti perkembangan semasa
surat khabar mmg tak penah miss beli tiap2 hari
mmg ayah baca A to Z
[hehe sbb tu laa masa join team bahas kt Irshad, klu de nk tny psl isu semasa terus roger ayah, kenapa dgn isu tu yah, apa hal sebenarnya bla bla bla... ayah cite segalanya,dgn gigih ak pun salin laa w.pun sblh tgn pegang gagang public phone]
kalau bab tgk berita plak
hah ayah mmg pantang kalau ada org kacau time2 dia tgh tgk berita
hehe disebabkan ak kanak2 hyperactive, penah la sekali dua buat dajal sket alih siaran haha
tpi ayah tak terus marah, ayah tgk je ak pastu ayah cakap bg ayah masa ni kejap je nk tgk tv pastu kamu tgk la puas2
lps tu ak tak berani buat dh

em kalau ada masalah ape ke ak lebih senang bercerita dgn ayah
sbb ayah was a good listener n motivator
ayah kata apapun look at yourself first
kesilapan tu bermula dri diri sendiri atau bagaimana..

ayah sememangnya tak penah berkira kalau ada org mntk tlg ke apa
smpai kdg2 aku pun rasa mcm nk geram dgn ayah sbb tgk ayah mcm dh letih sgt
tapi ayah kata;
takpa, hari ni hari dia
mana tau esok lusa hari kita
jgn rasa rugi nk tolong org

aku blaja bwk motor dgn ayah
byk sgt benda ak blaja dgn ayah
masa zaman kanak2 kalau ayah blk jenguk ak kt umah tok
ayah akan ajak ak buat latihan math
ayah akan ajar kt papan hitam
ayah selalu bagi semangat utk ak belajar
kata ayah
dulu ayah tak dapat peluang semua ni
jadi manfaatkan lah

ayah mmg suka bergurau
funny person
kalau tetiba ayah terperasan muka ak cam tembok sket
pasti ayah akn buat lawak smpi ak jadi neutral blk
ayah mmg best n sempoi!

ak anak yg degil,keras kepala, ketegaq
ayah insan yg sangat penyabar
ak slalu jugak lwn cakap
tpi ayah tak terus marah
ayah tanya elok2 n kata2 ayah yg selanjutnya buat ak terus rasa bersalah dan minta maaf dgn ayah

ingat lagi hari2 terakhir dgn ayah..2002,jun, khamis
masa tu kt sekolah
form 3
sekolah ak separuh asrama, separuh berulang
em tetiba ada kwn dtg pgi tu bgtau
ptg ni tggu la mkcik hg nk dtg amik
eh?? buat apa? pegi mana?
dgn sengalnya ak bertanya sbb ak tatau apa2
laa hg taktau lgi ka ayah hg masuk hospital, tak sedar?
erk
terkedu..
muka dh jadi lain, terus pegi call tok
tok, ayah kenapa? kan baru hari selasa jmpa ayah sbb gi follow up?
tok nak tak nak je bercerita
"ayah hg msuk hospital, 2hri dah. tak sedaq"
eh??
em ak pun blk ke kelas dgn jiwa yg dh xde kt sekolah
tetiba cikgu kelas perasan
lps bercerita, dia terus offer nk hntr blk umah
katanya saya tau awk mesti x boleh nk concentrate dh
smpai je umah, masa tu bru pkul 10.30++ pagi
rilek la kejap
dlm kul 11 lebih cmtu tetiba tok balik, sbb tok g umah sebelah jap
ak dgr suara tok ckp dri jauh
'dah tak sempat dh nk pi hospital, takpayah laa..'
eh?
kenapa?
'ayah dah takda'
erk?
ak taktau apa perasaan masa tu
muka takde perasaan je. antara percaya dan tidak
ak call mak n pakngah nk confirm
em alright mmg btul
ayah kena stroke secara mengejut petang selasa
dan menghembuskan nafas terakhir pagi khamis
em lama sket pastu baru terasa nk nangis jap..
just tggu jela van jenazah smpi umah around 1pm cmtu
masa tu laa bru dpt jumpa mak
sejurus turun dri van mak peluk ak
ak speechless..
ak jadi sangat kagum dgn mak masa tu
sbb mak kelihatan sgt tabah
mak nangis jap je masa jmpa ak tu pastu mak dh bleh maintain
setahu ak sblm ni jiwa mak agak lembut la jugak
tpi alhamdulillah Allah bagi kekuatan luar biasa
lepas menatap wajah ayah utk kesekian kali
hati rasa luluh tpi
terasa ada kekuatan luar biasa menjalar
thanks Allah for everything!!

ayah
maafkan sy sebab tak mampu jdi anak seperti yg diharapkan
maafkan sy atas segalanya
terima kasih ayah atas segala pengorbanan yg tak ternilai
terima kasih kerana mengajarku bagaimana utk bertatih di dunia ini
u r the best ever father in the world!
Ya Allah ampunkan segala dosa ayah
semoga ayah tenang di sana
semoga ruh ayah ditempatkan dlm kalangan org2 yg beriman
ameeen

Feb 16, 2009

THings that i miss a lot..

Salam'alayk

THings that i miss a lot..

i miss my syazana
bila nk dtg Kuantan?
last jumpa hri tu ms mu convo dip kt Shah Alam
amir,irah,adik n awin.. how's everyone? lama gil ak x jmpa diorg

i miss hanging out with cik kem
dah lama xg derat sama2..
last travel sama2 pun masa g T'ganu hri tu, tu pun sbb kes emergency ayah kpd seorg shbt kembali ke Rahmatullah
huu

ice-skating!
uhuuu cik kem bila kta nk g main lagi?
nnti kaki jd keras + x reti kot sbb da lama x main haha
tu la hg sapa suh tukar course
kn cuti dh tak sama?
huu ak pun sama gak..

i miss my previous roomates @ matric
cik kem,harly n safi
[Nur Akmarina Ramli, Harly Shahida Mohd Johar, Sapiah Derahman]
huuu susah wooo nk jmpa shbt2 yg memahami n sehati sejiwa sekepala cmni uhuk
bila dh masuk main campus, semua berpisah
harly ke gombak
cik kem n safi tukar dentist automatiknya kena pindah blok
ak ke nursing
hmm
setahun setengah sebilik dgn korg akn buat ak ingat smpi bila2 insyaAllah
moga ukhwah terus terjalin ameen

n sebenarnya...
huaaaaaa ak nk balik umah...uhuk
i miss my mom chicken soup + my grandma fish curry
nyum2 marvellous!
aaaa tidak!!meleleh air liur dh haha
mak maafkan daku sbb da lama x balik umah
tok bertabahlah, jgn rindu-rinduan cucu yg sorg ini
kekangan masa + cuti yg very limited menyebabkan ak fikir 10x kalau nk balik umah
Kuantan-Penang
banjaran Titiwangsa perlu ak rentasi
2hri dh hbis masa utk perjalanan pergi blk dh huuu
bertabahlah hati!
hri tu sbb dah tak tahan sgt terus roger cik kem
"jom masak?!"
apa lagi t.hari Jumaat menjadi saksi buat projek kt bilik cik kem hehe
blk kelas pgi tu terus singgah market bli apa yg patut
hasilnya sup ayam sentuhan cik kem + udang goreng ak haha
jadilah, at least terubat sket.. heee

em alright, ada kuliah maghrib sket sempena iftar nursing hri ni
roger

syukurr yg infiniti!

Salam'alayk

Syukurrrnya ya Allah..
lega 2 big asggmt dh selesai di hantar!!
fight for NaNSym!!
yeah berusahalahhh

uhuuu hri ni clas penuh lagi smpi 6.30pm huu
advance drpd wanita bekerjaya dh nii!
haha
aiyak nk kena blk IMC [Indera Mahkota Campus] plak
huuu clas dgn lectr Diet kol 2
hmhm waiting for my pasenggers, K.Rif n Khai yg tgh berjihad utk individual clinical exam skrg
yeah berusahalah kalian!

ada sesuatu yg menarik psl talk Dr Khairizan yg ak nk share
insyaAllah in the next entry
yosh!

buat sahabat2 seperjuangan, bertabahlah bekerja utk NaNSYm
sket je lagiii
[huuuu keje ak byk x settle lg weiiii]
bekerjalah dgn penuh keazaman utk ISlam
kuat semangat
berlapang dada
betulkan niat
may Allah makes everything easy on us
kita hanya merancang Allah jua yg menentukan segalanya
apapun berusahalah!
faiza 'azamta fatawakkaltu 'alallah =)

Feb 12, 2009

I'm back!

Salam'alayk

waaa rindunya kt my abg samad!!
sukides abg samad!
w.pun nun jauh di Tampoi sana
berjuang menegakkan keadilan
membantu insan yg memerlukan pertolongan
xpe abg samad, kau perwira!
huahua last2 ak pun ikut masuk Tampoi jugak
haha

hehe jgn salah paham
abg samad ak ni exist dlm TV je
ni bahana pengaruh keluang man laa ni
what to do
dh terjebak tertengok sejak zaman kanak2 ribena
( skrg pun layan je klu berkesempatan heee peace!)

inilah impaknya bila hidup celaru tunggang langgang lately..
smpi roomate ak sindri pun taktau masa mana i'm back n go out again
sorry guys..
hmm alhamdulillah skrg slightly relief laa
sbb tdi dh dpt peluang g kedai utk tmph barang gimmick OCC
dh dpt tau hrga dia smua
alhmdulillah smlm pun dh dpt requested video cam utk buat video gimmick from hakim
thanks dude!
w.pun asgmnt Bro Said tak siap lagi hehe berani mati btol!
xpe insyaAllah ak akan masuk gear 10 ptg smpi mlm ni insyAllah
sbb esok clas xde! yeay
alhamdulillah syukur sgt..

anyway a lot of thanks to Maryam Kamal sbb sudi dgr cerita suka duka ak spnjg mnggu ni haha poyo je
ak syg ko!

Ya Allah berilah kekuatan utk kami terus berjuang
permudahkan urusan kami utk NANSYM ini ameen

p/s: k.dayah bila kta nk main futsal lgi? waaa tensen thp super dh ni

"Today is all that you have. Organize the hours of this day so that you make years out of minutes and months out of seconds. Seek forgiveness from your Lord, remember HIM, prepare for the final parting from this world and live today happily and at peace."

'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni