Nurse: Jom. Dah boleh pergi sebelah dah. Diaorang dah panggil
Gina: Ok. Tapi boleh buka line terus tak sebab before going there I nak pergi toilet dulu
Nurse: Oh boleh. Tapi kena tunggu sekejap la sebab nak bagi ubat ni habis dulu. After that dah boleh buka line terus
Gina: Kejap lagi I nak bawa sweater sama boleh? Sebab nanti masuk plasma tu sejuk. Semalam dah menggigil'
Nurse: Boleh je. Takda masalah. Ha'ah yelah kan. Masuk plasma memang sejuk sikit compared to blood
Gina: Eh you tahu?
Aku senyum lebar.
Nurse: I'd been experienced it.
Gina: Haaa?? Why?
Di wajahnya tergambar tanda soal yang maha besar.
Nurse: I had ********. But it was 10 years back. More than 10 years
Gina: Wow! Cool
Her mom: You look very positive! So now how's your condition?
Gina: Yeah, cool
Nurse: Thanks. Doctor said if everything is fine in 10 years, I could be declared as recover
Her mom: I see..but..positive!You are very positive! I can see that. So now are you still on medication or anything?
Nurse: Nope. Totally stop everything in 2001. Just follow up once a year
Her mom: Wow..miracle!
Gina: Miracle!
Nurse: Alhamdulillah thanks God! haha you know what, even the doctor said I don't need to go for follow up anymore. Dan saya sendiri pun dah lupa saya pernah sakit haha..
Gina: Haha yalah..dah lama kan.. but still..cool!
Nurse: Erm when you've been diagnosed?
Gina: 2005
Nurse: I see..It's about 5-6 years. Never mind. No one asks to be sick. You are the chosen one! Be strong then
Gina: Yup. We are the chosen one. It's not easy you know.. I feel afraid, anxious blablabla'
Nurse: Yeah I can feel it. I used to be a patient back then and now I'm a nurse. So that, I know how does patient feels
Gina: Cool
Nurse: Lucky you because you have such a very supportive family
Gina: Yeah... Without them, it's hard you know.. I don't think I can bear it alone
Nurse: Yup. Thanks God!
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Tuhan,
aku ingin menjadi orang yang bermanfaat kepada yang lain
ingin menjadi inspirasi kepada pesakit-pesakit ku
tetapkanlah hatiku di jalan ini
kerana aku ingin berada di barisan paling hadapan ummah!
biar aku dicemuh, dipandang rendah, dihina, dicaci, dikeji serta apapun
tetapi KAU tahukan apa yang tertulis di hati..?
Semakin sering aku diremehkan, semakin kuat rasa ingin melawan dan cuba untuk membuktikan bahawa segala apa tentang hidup ini adalah di bawah kuasa Tuhan!
SELAMAT HARI JURURAWAT, 12 Mei
..hidup ini tidak lama, sekadar antara azan dan solat cuma maka biarlah bermanfaat hendaknya~
Syif petang, Medical Ward 8TD
Pusat Perubatan Univ. Malaya